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miss me?? its been a long time since i last post here!
currently, im having nightmares!
nightmares about my family who doesn't give me the opportunity to express my feelings!
nightmares about my friends who left me all alone in a dark room!
nightmares about my 'closest' guy friend who .... (fill in the blank)

i wanted to call him today.. but... im sure he wont pick up the phone call.
im not in a good mood recently... i need a break.
a break from all these "nightmares" i had these past few days.

yesterday was awesome!
i made my own day! (as i was all alone at home!)
in order to cheer myself up, i dressed up.
put on some thick eyeliner, and snap pictures of my own!
at the end of, i feel so GREAT ABOUT MYSELF!
i became more confident! (=

till here readers! love yaw!
xoxo

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dude, im sorry if i did anything wrong to make you mad at me. we didnt meet for so long. and i missed you so. it's coming. a few more days, and we're celebrating. i just want you to be there for me. i want me to be the one you're thinking of every second. i try my best not to let you down. i try my best to make sure we'll meet some day. because i love you, i dont care what people gonna say about us. i trust you. i know i'm the only one you loved. thats why i dont mind you going out with your girl -friend. because i love you, i want you back... i know it wouldnt be forever. we both know. i just wish it could. im posting this, because of you. we seldom chat at msn. you made my day, yesterday. thanks. i know you cant today. its ouhkay. i totally understand that. no matter what, you're the one for me.

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HATE ME LIKE YOU NEVER HATE ME BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had enough of every single thing you did to me.
i cant even trust you.
how could i face it?
im so in doubt
im not sure whats happening
im not a good friend of yours.
hate me ?
by all means!
i had enough.
im tired of playing these games.
its over between me and you.
you're nothing now.
i dont feel like going.
i cant face the music!
you made me laughed,
you made me to forget the past.
but, you changed.
you changed not for the better.
i hate it!
i hate it when you called my name.
im just like you!
i need freedom!
that's all im asking for!
im letting out all my feelings here!
i dont asked you to trust my words!
but you chose to!
it's not my fault!
i know you gonna hate me after reading this!
it's my mistake!
it's my fault to step on it back!
blame me for all that happened!
you guys just cant be trusted!
seriously!
i hate it!
i hate it when you called my name!
i truly hate it!
i hate you for who you're not!
i hate it!
im sitting right here!
just to let out all my feelings towards you!
i dont know who i should trust!
i dont know!
im confused!
you guys are just not who i thot you guys were!
leave me alone!
dont bother talking to me!
im so hate you!
BITCH! FUCKER! WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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haish.... im having a major problem right now.
i dont wish to talk about it. it's been a week since a last using the lappy.
anyways, back with the one and only....
i am tired right now.
i truly couldn't forget what happened on 051009...

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hello readers! miss me? hah! like real! anyways, i won't be posting till next wednesday or thursday. Coz i need to mug up on my studies. Currently in school. Having IT. hah! i didnt bring my thumbdrive, so Syaf gave me her extra. thanks!

anyways, i want to have a break for now. bye!