second blog

say no hello!

2009-11-20T19:30:00.000-08:00

miss me?? its been a long time since i last post here!
currently, im having nightmares!
nightmares about my family who doesn't give me the opportunity to express my feelings!
nightmares about my friends who left me all alone in a dark room!
nightmares about my 'closest' guy friend who .... (fill in the blank)

i wanted to call him today.. but... im sure he wont pick up the phone call.
im not in a good mood recently... i need a break.
a break from all these "nightmares" i had these past few days.

yesterday was awesome!
i made my own day! (as i was all alone at home!)
in order to cheer myself up, i dressed up.
put on some thick eyeliner, and snap pictures of my own!
at the end of, i feel so GREAT ABOUT MYSELF!
i became more confident! (=

till here readers! love yaw!
xoxo

expressed

2009-10-31T02:06:00.000-07:00

dude, im sorry if i did anything wrong to make you mad at me. we didnt meet for so long. and i missed you so. it's coming. a few more days, and we're celebrating. i just want you to be there for me. i want me to be the one you're thinking of every second. i try my best not to let you down. i try my best to make sure we'll meet some day. because i love you, i dont care what people gonna say about us. i trust you. i know i'm the only one you loved. thats why i dont mind you going out with your girl -friend. because i love you, i want you back... i know it wouldnt be forever. we both know. i just wish it could. im posting this, because of you. we seldom chat at msn. you made my day, yesterday. thanks. i know you cant today. its ouhkay. i totally understand that. no matter what, you're the one for me.

2009-10-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOU CALLING MY NAME!

2009-10-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

HATE ME LIKE YOU NEVER HATE ME BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had enough of every single thing you did to me.
i cant even trust you.
how could i face it?
im so in doubt
im not sure whats happening
im not a good friend of yours.
hate me ?
by all means!
i had enough.
im tired of playing these games.
its over between me and you.
you're nothing now.
i dont feel like going.
i cant face the music!
you made me laughed,
you made me to forget the past.
but, you changed.
you changed not for the better.
i hate it!
i hate it when you called my name.
im just like you!
i need freedom!
that's all im asking for!
im letting out all my feelings here!
i dont asked you to trust my words!
but you chose to!
it's not my fault!
i know you gonna hate me after reading this!
it's my mistake!
it's my fault to step on it back!
blame me for all that happened!
you guys just cant be trusted!
seriously!
i hate it!
i hate it when you called my name!
i truly hate it!
i hate you for who you're not!
i hate it!
im sitting right here!
just to let out all my feelings towards you!
i dont know who i should trust!
i dont know!
im confused!
you guys are just not who i thot you guys were!
leave me alone!
dont bother talking to me!
im so hate you!
BITCH! FUCKER! WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLS GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE!

2009-10-09T03:21:00.000-07:00

I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know, im not.. no worries

2009-10-06T03:10:00.000-07:00

haish.... im having a major problem right now.
i dont wish to talk about it. it's been a week since a last using the lappy.
anyways, back with the one and only....
i am tired right now.
i truly couldn't forget what happened on 051009...

love!

2009-09-29T18:21:00.000-07:00

hello readers! miss me? hah! like real! anyways, i won't be posting till next wednesday or thursday. Coz i need to mug up on my studies. Currently in school. Having IT. hah! i didnt bring my thumbdrive, so Syaf gave me her extra. thanks!

anyways, i want to have a break for now. bye!

love you back?

2009-09-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

am i in love? no im not! how could i? i have my own. do i? but, it treats my like a *****. haish. thot i wont happened. i had enouf. im tired! i just wanna have sometime to rest.

you gave me a reason.
told me that im yours.
i'll sing you like a song.
i'll read you like a story.
i'll keep you like a secret.
i'll watch you like a movie.

2009-09-14T01:22:00.000-07:00

hello earthings! im back! sorry blog for not updating! :( sorry sorry! anyways, my life now is much more better than last semester. i could say. but, friends problems are a normal thing to me. im use to those backstabbed, gossip girls, hypocrite faces and also bitch! im not referring to anyone here. But, i wonder.... i can be friends with anyone i want. But friends who made faces can kiss my ass! i should avoid them. Just a little chit chat and walk off! that is what i called time to back off! heeheee! im just a little bored here!
currently, chatting with natasha and fafa!
i miss Natasha lots cans?!

2009-09-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

it's been a decade i've not posting anything here. miss me? im still using the same link alright??? since i love myself so much, i won't let anyone to hurt my feelings. you know what? im waatching 8MILE right now. the main character??? EMINEM!!! ouh.... you guys know the song OBSESSED by Mariah Carey right. Actually, that song she was referring to eminem, her ex-boyfriend. I was suprised when i got to know that Eminem was her USED TO BE BOYFRIEND! hah! it's a fact that Eminem is cute ouhkay! hah! it's fasting month, and im glad i've controlling te words i said that came out from my mouth! :)

2009-08-14T01:02:00.000-07:00

ALERT!
I'LL BE MOVING ON AGAIN! TO MY ONSUGAR!
SIMPLY, HATE THIS BLOG. I MEAN, EVERYTHING IS NOT ORGANISE! :(
OUHKAY! BYE!
MY LAST POST!

2009-08-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

here's the update!

im tired right now.
totally. im tired of it.

thot that everything would be perfect for us.
but, no!
i was wrong about it. about everything.
read up my onsugar.com and you'll get the picture of it.
iloveyou.
do you?

2009-08-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

going Down Town tomorrow.[chalet] celebrate aqmal's 9th birthday!
i'll be back on monday! :)
won't be chatting w kunyut.... :(
yay! he received a new bag from mom. sungguh tak happy! haha! jealous tau! haha!
jkjk!.

so, everything is done. just a little trauma about yesterday. haish....
ouhkay. im done here. just miss kunyut banyak banyak la! heeee

2009-08-07T19:55:00.000-07:00

tags replied:

to feeq: im not referring to you lah. just a random one. coz im not in a gd mood. anyways, you are flooding my tagboard sey!
to syaf: yes! we should! all the time! hahah!

yesterday's celebrate is super boring. that's all i can say. we just dance and sing the song all the time. and took some photos.
and after the celebration, we had our malay lesson. haha!

something happened after it. which i don't wish to talk about it. i was way too disappointed towards her doing and all that i didn't talked much. haish. 3 words for you, HOW COULD YOU?

ouhkay! done.
thursday nite, kunyut gave me the cupcakes. i was way too hyper that i called someone to accompany me, while waiting for kunyut. the cupcakes ouhkay lah. not bad. haha! fyi, i don't hate you lah.... don't worry kay? im happy rite now! kunyut online la!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

2009-08-06T06:58:00.001-07:00

IF YOU WANNA PLAY WITH MY HEART,
PERGI MASOK HUTAN SUDAH!

2009-08-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

HELLO EARTH!
JUST CAME BACK FROM MADRASAH!
OMG! DID ANYONE WITNESSED ANYTHING?! WE WERE CROSSING THE ROAD!
OMG!!!!
SUNNGUH IN THE FANTASY LOR!

I HATE IT THAT HE IS SUPER TALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL! :(
hehe! THANKS FOR THE CUPCAKES!
SO CUTE! KAY IMM TOO HAPPY NOW! BYE LOVES!

service learning

2009-08-03T03:31:00.001-07:00

just came back from service learning at "my first school".

just behind the South View primary school there.

all the photos are with me.

is just that. i can't upload it right now. coz there's something wrong with the my computer.

:(

actually, my buddy ran away and she(joline), was lost.

and no where to be found.

haha! anyways, till here aytes! :)

the photos , i saved it in my thumbdrive. i'll bring to school tomorrow and maybe pass to someone else to upload the photos kay?

bye!

and takecare!

falling for you

2009-08-01T22:44:00.000-07:00

I dont know but
I think I maybe
Falling for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting til I
Know you better

im trying not to tell you
but i want to
im scared of what you'll say
so im hiding what im feeling
but im tired of
holding this inside my head

i've been spending all my time
just thinking about you
i don't know what to do.
i think im falling for you

heyhey! what a night! i dreamt about him! haish...
haha! its funny after all. im sure he'll be reading this.
" he, his friend and i went to somewhere and study together. before that, while waiting for his friend to come and joined us. He took out his phone and we took pictures together. We laughed. "
that's the only part that i could remember...
:) im sick! having a flu.

UNEXPECTED!

2009-07-31T19:02:00.000-07:00

hello!

yesterday wasn't a good day.
guess he knows why im upset sometimes.
but it's ouhkay.
orang tuh punye phone LG seyy!
hah!

i don't wish to elaborate what happened during recess yesterday.
UNEXPECTED! AND I DON'T LIKE IT. TRULY.

afer school,
there's an extra malay class. like usual.
kinda boring. yet fun.
hah! i told Cikgu that i would bring some ondeh-ondeh to school next week.
hah! Cikgu layan kan jek...

went for CCA.
i love yesterday's training. Not much to do. Just took the crew photos and blahblahblah.
Jeremy(crew) won't be coming for training that often anymore so does Timo. i think.

tags replied:

to feeq: not fair! you cabot first. i ended up walking with Hani. :(
: it's ouhkay. wah pakai lg seyy! hah!
:good nite to you too! wah! ade kiss sey! hahahahahaha!
:thanks for the tag feeq. -.-
:kesian nye tak ley tido... i can't sleep that easily! hehehe!

to syasya: ouhkay! thanks. i'll relink you!
:

i love the way i am!

2009-07-29T01:45:00.000-07:00

HELLO READERS!

i love it when F message me! :))
how sad, F didn't message me today...
anyway, today i kena bully by that WAN NADHIRAH BINTE SUHAIRI and NUR SYAFIQAAH BINTE NORAZMAN!
urghhh! it's ouhkay...

next time, i'll bully them back.
not these few days uh. Common test is around the corner. That's the reason.

haish...
i wonder why FERNANDO TORRES IS SOOOOO CUTE! haha!
i cut out his pic and put in my file.
i know my friends are just jealous that FERNANDO TORRES IS MINE. hah!

ouh ya,
today is my atok's BIRTHDAY! actually, i don't know how old is my atok lah... hehe!

today's interview wasn't that good, yet funny. :D
SYAFIQAH, WAN AND AMIRAH was laughing at me during the interview.
Coz the way i pronounce 'CHAPTEH' was so funny. hah! later i msg 'HAHA ! ' to SYAF. [-.-]

to that rafeal;
you wanna go, just go lah . thanks . and gdbye!

ouhkay. end of today's post! :)
takecare F! :)

Liverpool vs Singapore!

2009-07-26T05:53:00.000-07:00

second post of the day!
watching Liverpool vs Singapore football match on channel five.

Singapore players are so tan! damn! hah! No offense alrite!

currently, Liverpool scored 4-0 . hah! congrats!
i support Liverpool! Go-Go!!! admire Torres! so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ouhkay! done for now.
:) i've not iron my uniform yet!!!!

I LOVE MY BOXER!

2009-07-26T03:21:00.000-07:00

yesterday went out with Syaf to Lot 1 library to do some discussions about the fund-raising.

Syaf- though im wearing my scarf, i still can rock the world. hah! :)

we did some lame stuffs and LOL together!

mom, sis and young bro went to grandpa's house.

im all alone with 'broco' hah!.
elder bro told me that his friends called him 'broco'. Because of his hair style. hah!
somehow, i find it cute to call him that.

in the morning, i accompanied mom to teck whye. she needs to buy some stuffs. as we walked, mom exclaimed, " eh! you want boxer?! ". of course i want! mom bought 2 spongbob boxers for me! it look so cute! and so does Aqmal. but, his designs were different from mine. as Aqmal and i reached home, both of were eager to try out. at last, -i pulled my pants, and showed him my boxer and i exclaimed, " CUTE KANS???! " he laughed and imitate me. -.-

that's all for that topic.

hey,
im sorry bout the messages that i sent you yesterday. i didn't mean to be 'heartless' to you. i was just a little bit of ... anyway, i didn't say that i would have a better life without you. maybe yes? hah! the way you texted me, that is so different. and how couldd you don't remember the date ... ? that is so weird of you. i sense something fishy about the way you act all the time. is this a game? are you trying to test me or something? if you were, you're barking on the wrong tree man! i actually was laughing yesterday. haish. all this while, evey single thing is just a waste la ehk. if you're still playing this game, you can get lost of my way! thanks.

heyhey!
i little bit of emotional there. heh!

2009-07-24T02:50:00.000-07:00

celebrate Athirah's birthday. WOW! Didn't know that those wishes from the class would make her cry. She said, " touching nyer!" i think uh. LOLS. Now, helping Zac to change his songs. -.- Tadi me, Athirah, Syafiqah, Shafiqah, Jamus, Kenneth, Safwan and Vestor kena BASH! hah! FUN or what! This time no bangla catch us! haha! Then at Limbang Park, Jamus was chasing me to pour the water at me. I ran and ran and ran, skali i fell down sia! So malu lor! There's our graduted seniors looking at us. Saf and Syaf helped me to stand up. Syaf was laughing at me like hell lor! Bloody her! haha! FYI, MY BUTT HURTS!!! *sob* sob* haha! Im sure there gonna be a big patch of BLUEBLACK on my left side of my butt! Actually there's something wrong with my font here! urghh! Then during reccess time, the 2G guys and girls, sina a birthday song for Athirah. Sweet kan budak 2G??? I know! haha!

Common test is around the corner kranjians! sigh. Hoping that i stop slacking la... Amin!

2009-07-23T03:04:00.000-07:00

HELLO HTRAE!

i love today! everyday my birthday la kans! haha! LOLame ! anyways, tomorrow is ATHIRAH NURIN SYAKIRAH'S BIRTHDAY!
ouhkay, ouhkay.... i wish now. im afraid if i cant online tomorrow. gahs!

to my beloved friend,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAW! wahh dah nak masuk 14 seyy budak tu! hah! anyway girl, thanks for being my friend since we were young. All the memories we had, we kept it to ourselves until we're old, kay? I know we faced lots of ups and down in this friendship. Tu sume cobaan! Forget the past and MOVE ON girl! huhu! Single kan? haha! Boleh uh move on ngn aku! :) Here's the thing, no matter what, our primary school are still better. That's what i think la kan. I don't know bout you. About the 'game' we both have to find the clues to win the 'game' kay? You know 'wak amin' ??? Andand, semoga panjang umur kay? im always here to listen to your stories and L jokes. haha! Ouhkay, till here babe!

Currently, chatting with Beeyatchy! haha! miss her damn alot lah kans! ;) anyway girl, i'll keep it to myself, kay? no worries! Seems like a year we have not talked to each other. Im moving on too! gagagahs! *wink* *wink* ;)

2009-07-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

CUTE!

I NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD BE LIKE THAT... :(

SO HOT !

He is obviously Draco Malfoy. The "bad" boy playing the Harry Potter series. He is damn cute la kan!!! *melting*. He was born on 5 June 1980. He is damn old! tsk! tsk! It's ouhkay. haha! I kept looking out for him everytime i watched Harry Potter. Saw that picture Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy! ouh god! I know they're not gay or something. It's just a friendship hug! haha! LAME. It really doesn't look like him! ewwk!

2009-07-21T22:26:00.000-07:00

first thing , i was absent from school.
sungguh bored at home. went somewhere! thot of watching movie with him. but takpe uh. pity he kena skip school just wanna watch movie with me. gagagahs! anyways, to that human being, don't be soooooo sensitive. you can play that game to me, so do i. i hate the font! there's something wrong with it la....
mom went too work after she accompanied me. :)
anyway, i dreamt about you . and i said something about you. and i dont believe those crap. then, i broke out. i said," let me tell you this, i dont even know who are you and i dont even know if yoou're ___t or not! "
goodbye. i'll talk to you tomorrow. and you'll get your present too.

lame shits!

2009-07-18T06:16:00.000-07:00

hello!
mom went to uncle's house for a while.
alone at home.
hoping that "grandma" won't be knocking on my door house.
scary!
ouh ya! Mr Nicholas Khor gave a photo comment
at my facebook. talking about Brother Bear! haha! so cute!

currently,
watching Harry Potter!
how cute! he is so cute! with his 'nerdy' specs!

talking about specs,
i remembered the day i saw D in front of me.
she was like in front of me.
and we were like a few centimeters away!
saw her wearing her blue contacts!
hah!
i knew it was her.
but, im not sure if the girl who was looking at her was me...
i even got the chance to see her friend too! B

im online.
but, i appeared off. smart ass!
i knew you on. *observing* (evil laughs)
:P

2009-07-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

CONFUSED!

the game

2009-07-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

let's play the game!
i just can't wait to get started! huhuuu!
anyways,
when i was outside school just now,
i said something like, "abeh, aku tak suke die!"
it wasn't referring to you.
it was referring to someone whom we planned to meet later.

Literature to day is fun! haha!
passing letter to athirah.
then ms Tang saw it.
even CG snatched it. haha!
we were writing it in malay.
CG passed it to Irfan and Wan.
haha! i was the only one whho was like laughing like hell in class. :)

let me type it here.
im tired. i don't know who the hell are you. i don't even know the instructions of this game. And why there is only a few players? why must you "create" the game? im so tired playing it again and again. No matter what, you're gonna be a loser. and im sure of that! idiot!

end!

to dan:
im not ready!

2009-07-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

art or dnt?

2009-07-10T03:10:00.004-07:00

hello humans!

it's the dead blog talking here!
haha! anyways,
something happened.
im so not gonna talk about it. -.-
spending time with athirah and syafiqah.
we three kinda had a talked. haha!
forget the past.
eventhough it's a second ago.
:)

met nadia amalina and tian en at library.
and talked. laughed. and finally bought a pop-corn.

sis and bro discouraged me to take A- Maths.
hmm.... still wondering either to take it or not.
coz, they said it's damn hard.
to take ART? or DNT?
don't contact me tonight.
im busy with some stuff.

RAWR!!!! there goes the lion! haha! you know, i know!!

power rangers!

2009-07-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

assalammualaikum people!

currently, watching Power Rangers at home. haha!
andd uploading pictures.

tomorrow is Youth Day ! I can't wait! yupees! Shazwan, Afiq, Khaalish, Nana, wan, Amalina, Syaf and Fiq would be there! And maybe, Syariff will be there too! We'll be at Stagmont Park, instead of CCK Park. Im gonna buy some snacks and drinks. Syaf provide, mufins! and Wan provide noodles! YUM! YUM! Amalina, i don't know what she's bringing. =.=

there'll also be games! so, i gotta bring extra shirt to change later. Maybe im not gonna play Water BOMB! MAYBE. See how my mood goes. And all of us will be playing 'true or dare'. heeee!

AKU BOSAN!!!!-IM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!-

ANDANDDD, im not done with my homework yet!!! sadded lah kan!

youth day!

2009-07-03T20:02:00.000-07:00

[deleted previous post]
due to some reasons.

gd im in a good mood right now.
alhamdulillah.
we have plans for the youth day!
thot of going for a picnic.
at CCK, since that is the only place we can go.
and not somewhere else.
ialmostforgetaboutthe7monththingy! sosorryyyyyy!
biatchy, you better go hor!
please! please!
nurin is not going coz she's going out with her bf.
sadded!
but it's ouhkay! enjoy guys!

human!

2009-06-29T02:04:00.001-07:00

hello!

haish. i cant on everyday.
kane grounded uh. bye eherm! kakak...
=.=
im sure, she's gonna read my post one!
like what?!
nevermind.
i enjoyed the holis!
not really lah kan! haha! i guess this is for today!
ondeh ondeh!!!!
haha!

bye breathing humans!
keep breathing yaw! ahahaha!!!!!!

study group!

2009-06-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

haha! lurve all these pictures here!
haha! move on @ C.P. !
hahah! somehow, i find it funny
when i fought with amalina about the move on thingy and reez.
like wth???
anyways,
today study group,
me, fiq, amalina, nana, azimah and khalish!
i didn't get to complete all my homework though....
=.=
hmm....
i read Zac's blog.
*wondering about the last few sentences/words on the paragraph.*

OUH SO RANDOMMM !!

2009-06-20T21:48:00.000-07:00

HELLO READERS!
im bored! so i took some random photos!
hahas! have you seen guys dancing nobody by wonder girls???
here's the video!! they looked sooo cute!!
ENJOYYY!

2009-06-20T19:33:00.000-07:00

heyhey!!! readers!

amalina back in the house!
ouh yess! meeting her tomorrow yaw!
i can't wait! then we can move on together kay??
i miss biatchy so much!

and i miss WAN AND FIQ damn alots!!!!
in the middle of the night something happened.
don't wanna talk about it. boo!

mom, sis, and yg bro at kampong yesterday!
all my cousins are there too!!!
regret i didnt go!!!
:(

2009-06-20T01:52:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is father's day. You don't deserve those wishes dad.

DAD?

i don't know what's the matter with you. Thank you so much for the sacrifices you've done to me.
Now, you're not staying with us anymore. I still remember dad. You took the kitchen knife and you threatened mom to kill you. That particular moment, was an exam week. I couldn't study in peace! because you're creating a fuss. What's wrong with you, dad? You slapped mom in front of your children dad! why you did all this to us? why you're hurting mom? We found letters and pictures of you and your scandal. You're hugging her. You fed her. She hold your hands! Mom cried. You're not a dad whom i know already. It really hurt when other parents aren't like my parents. And when you took me to the shopping centre, you just can't stop messaging your girlfriend. Even with mom, you did that to her. And when you're mad about that girl, you would asked mom dressed like her. F you la! It's been 22 years your marriage with mom. But told us you never gave her you true love. You just couldn't stop with your sweet lies. Just so you know, your girlfriend message me. Telling me that you're getting married with her. GO AHEAD! YOU'RE SUCH A JERK! You're not loyal to mom. You would hurt mom when mom finds out you have scandals. What's wrong with you. Because of you, i gave a fake smile to them.
im so upset of having a dad like you. I've always wanted you to change dad. But, you choose not to. You told your siblings that mom was at fault. But then, you're the one who creating stuffs. No matter how much i cried for you, you won't change. YOU WON'T! i still remember yesterday, you insult mom in front of us! A question for you, should i call you my dad? i don't think so. You even put stuffs on my bag so that no one would hurt me. wth? Get lost! Is that all guys would do when they get married, dad?! im so disappointed on you! im tired you! You're not you anymore, dad! And you don't deserve my tears dad.

damn!

2009-06-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

REEZ is back.
ouh great. i miss him too.
i miss all my friends.
haish.
im getting fatter day by day. F!
urghhh!
promised myself to cut down what i eat.
*crossing heart*

well, so far only a few of my friends i let to
view this private blog.
so, better don't break the trust.
:)
byeeeeeeeeeeeee!

untitled

2009-02-04T01:50:00.000-08:00

me and him,
are just friends now.
forever!
after school,
went to macD with syaf.
then, met nadia.
kecooohhhsss sak!
gerek giler!
too bad,
athirah wasn't with us.
if not,
it would be like last time.
we all four hang-out together.
huhu!!!

yesterday, out with the TBM .
went to library.
had TBM's talk.
(girls talk)
muahaha!
giler jugak seyy
lepak ngn dorg...
hahax!

:D

2008-11-07T01:12:00.000-08:00

so nyahaha! simply love both pics! so , ya...had a hair cut at my aunt house...
very "suay"... accidentally hit a makcik with my bike...haiyoyo!...soorrrrryyyy! sorry sangat2!
tak sengaje tau!...haha! ok. and i miss my "eherm" very much larh kan.....
i miss all my scandals and beylos very much!
okok. gtg now!
happy happy slalu!
i miss my "eherm"